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January 6, 2014

If I'm lucky, someday in the future I'll see what I've written here and think how young I still was and how much more there was ahead. Until then I'll keep writing things down, both the things I make up and the things that have happened. It is the way I've learned to see my life"--Ann Patchett

  • Read the introduction to This is the Story of a Happy Marriage on a crowded train on my way home to edit and revise the final draft of my thesis, and this piece was so great to read *right now.* (above quote from page 10)

2013: The Year in Books

I'm finishing up my thesis as my last project for 2013 and the very first of 2014. I'm not sure how that has affected my reading list, but here are the books I read in 2013, in reverse chronological order, with those that I especially enjoyed starred:

  1. The Walking Dead Vol. 18 / Kirkman
  2. The Craft of Research / Booth

December 28, 2013

December 8, 2013

December 1, 2013

  • Finished Two Cheers for Anarchism,
  • This weekend I also read this article in the New Yorker, which for me was a real head-scratcher. Really, I am totally puzzled by it and would love to have a discussion with anyone who read it. What the fuck was it about, really? So much there and yet so little explicitly articulated. Why was it so hot and cold and going somewhere and then not? Guess that's life, or maybe what the story really was. But it left me with a creepy aftertaste, like when you somehow end up watching one of those horrible real life mystery tv shows.
  • Also saw The Punk Singer which is highly recommended. There's a part at the end where Hanna talks about not being heard/or she describes feeling like when you do actually speak out and the worry that (often, or if you aren't a guy) what you say is so often misinterpreted or made to seem irrelevant or exaggerated, etc. (what she says there is better than how I am describing it here). That part was really powerful for me and articulated a thing that I didn't know needed articulating right now.

November 27, 2013

  • More of Two Cheers for Anarchism, which is the best kind of scholarly-enough, but-can-still-read-while-standing-on-the-train
  • Still always enjoy being in on the conversation in which Barbara Fister grapples with librarianship and our roles in academic thinking/discourse

November 25, 2013

  • After seeing a panel on anarchism at ASA that I very much enjoyed, returned to, or re-started Scott's Two Cheers for Anarchism, which is very much worth the citing it got in DC.

November 24, 2013

  • Night Sweats by Laura Crossett. The last time I think I emailed Laura I was coming back from vacation on a train. Today on another train home devoured this, feeling frail and frazzled. Found it honest, real, inspiring.

November 11, 2013

November 8, 2013

November 7, 2013

  • Started reading this interview today, and the conversation about New York reminded me of intentionally turning my back on the older man who was sketching and obviously staring on the train the other morning. Trying to escape that kind of uninvited scrutiny today--the feeling that seems stale and outdated--of claiming everything in public spaces by the dominant. How inescapable and suffocating it feels sometimes, having everyone else's expectations and projections living around you. Today, or maybe most of the time, I want to refuse all of it.
  • Also a bit of Nguyen/Nikpour's Punk and I lived the dream and transcribed (other misc. reading) while simultaneously listening/watching.

November 5, 2013

Against the Grain Interview

I was recently interviewed on KPFA (Pacifica) Radio's program Against the Grain. C.S. and I mostly discussed topics surrounding the chapter I wrote, "Meta-Radicalism: The Alternative Press by and for Activist Librarians" for the book Libraries and the Reading Public in Twentieth-Century America, Edited by Christine Pawley and Louise S. Robbins. I'm hoping that I represented the issues involved well, but I'm always challenged by interviews--there are so many ways to represent ideas in conversation(s).

The interview will be broadcast Tuesday November 5 at noon Pacific Time if you'd like to listen.
Against the Grain on Pacifica Radio airs on KPFA 94.1 FM in the San Francisco Bay Area, and on KFCF 88.1 FM in Fresno and California's Central Valley.

It also broadcasts worldwide via kpfa.org.

The audio will be archived afterward, in on-demand and downloadable forms, at againstthegrain.org.

October 28, 2013

  • This American Life episode 470: Show Me The Way

    Piers Anthony is 77 years old now. But really, he was just an angry kid who'd muddled through like everyone else, which surprised Andy. In the author's notes from his book Fractal Mode, book two of his Mode series, he writes, "One thing you who had secure or happy childhoods should understand about those of us who did not, we who control our feelings, who avoid conflicts at all costs or seem to seek them, who are hypersensitive, self-critical, compulsive, workaholic, and above all survivors, we're not that way from perversity. And we cannot just relax and let it go. We've learned to cope in ways you never had to."

October 23, 2013

  • No time to keep up. Raced through Pastoralia by Saunders on the train, trying to get back into Williams for the thesis.